A little , maybe too late, but i have finally figured out what i want to do - what im gonna be good at.
BUt why then is working towards it so difficult - in the big scheme of things, everything shall fall into perfect place, my perfect place, only when i start working, and sincerely working towards these miniature, daily assignments which i so conveniently dont do.
Is it the place, is it the pressure(seemingly non-existent), is it that im being made to do this???
No its just that im not motivated enough - i dont know why and how - but i just know it & i know it right.
What is it that is obstructing me? what is not compelling enough about this situation that is making me drift away. I get up everyday with the urge to do something but i end up loosing it to the black holes of unproductiveness - and I end my day staring into those.
I know i can put this time to great use - its just a month and a half more - not a big deal - but then why does this attitude not transslate into action? I am not someone who wants to go out, chill everyday to rot in the absence of that.
I desperately need making up measures - i CANNOT, absolutely CANNOT stand time spent doing nothing productive all day, everyday.
Will hit back.
BUt why then is working towards it so difficult - in the big scheme of things, everything shall fall into perfect place, my perfect place, only when i start working, and sincerely working towards these miniature, daily assignments which i so conveniently dont do.
Is it the place, is it the pressure(seemingly non-existent), is it that im being made to do this???
No its just that im not motivated enough - i dont know why and how - but i just know it & i know it right.
What is it that is obstructing me? what is not compelling enough about this situation that is making me drift away. I get up everyday with the urge to do something but i end up loosing it to the black holes of unproductiveness - and I end my day staring into those.
I know i can put this time to great use - its just a month and a half more - not a big deal - but then why does this attitude not transslate into action? I am not someone who wants to go out, chill everyday to rot in the absence of that.
I desperately need making up measures - i CANNOT, absolutely CANNOT stand time spent doing nothing productive all day, everyday.
Will hit back.
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